I am having an off day. My brain still feels like mush from all the anesthesia, medications and pain killers. My pain is still about the same as when I was sent home from ER, maybe a very small improvement. However, I am also taking a lot more pain meds too, so that is probably why I say “small improvement” because it’s really thanks to the pain killers. The pain has remained in the same spots, mostly in my shoulder blade and when I take deep breaths it is still in that kidney area (bottom of my liver).
I researched pleural effusions online and found out that they can be excruciatingly painful. Sometimes people develop so much fluid they have to be tapped! (That is what they did to my abdomen when I had ascites fluid in it pre-transplant, they stick a needle into your lungs and take off the fluid so that you can breathe!). Breathing is painful! So is moving.
Also, if the fluid from the pleural effusion, pushes on one’s diaphragm then it can cause extreme referred pain to the abdomen, neck and…. shoulder blade! So at least I know why I am having shoulder blade pain. The pain is the worst at night and especially in the mornings. I need help getting up from the chairs again (Yes, I have been sleeping in the chairs again all week.) I am more than ready for the fluid to be absorbed and the pain to leave…
This morning we woke up and went to get my blood drawn. My favorite guy was there again, Kimon, he knows how to draw blood! He did it in one poke, if you can call it that, because I didn’t even feel it. I think he might be an angel! haha We also got my CAT Scan results put on a CD to take with us tomorrow for my UCSF clinic appointment.
I am hopeful for tomorrow. I hope they do some testing or some kind of work up to try to fix me up, refer me to a pain specialist or at least give me some advice for dealing with this pleural effusion. Please pray I get a very caring doctor tomorrow at clinic that will want to help me with getting the pain under control and that he/she will really hear me.
On the bright side, I have another book coming soon. I get bored with tv, facebook and in this much pain I haven’t been able to do much. I have been reading my bible more which is always good. I always struggle with that which makes no sense because once I open it and get into it, I absolutely love it.
When I was in the hospital someone gave me a book by Julie Klassen (Sadly with my meds, I don’t even remember who, if you are reading this and gave me that book, please let me know! It’s been driving me crazy… possibly my aunt or weegi…). It was one of the best books that I have read. Similar in style to Jane Austen! I love books however I finish them in 1-2 days (400 page books, thanks for the quick reading genes daddy-o)! Since then I have ordered two more of her books and each time it is better and better… my newest Julie Klassen book will be here in a few days! =D Focus on the happy little things in life and not the big negative things! (Books that make you smile vs. pain that makes you cry). Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you make of it.