In talking to my friend today I realize how many people, including myself before I was sick, take life for granted. Living and doing normal things is such a blessing because it means you are healthy. I have started driving myself into town (I find excuses just because I want to get out), I also cleaned my car out yesterday, vacuumed, played with my dog… you know, normal things! Normal things that are complete blessings because of a miracle that was given to me! Having the energy, the mobility, the ability to take a full deep breath… things that get taken for granted. Even things that didn’t affect me before I am grateful for. I never had problems with walking/legs but I find myself being thankful for the ability to walk.
Quite honestly, normal is addicting. It is exciting to do the silly things most people find mundane. I can’t stop myself… that is until I do so much “normal” that my body stops me from doing more. The last few days I was enjoying pushing myself, doing typical things and today I wake up exhausted barely able to move. I am still in my PJs, sitting here with a pillow staring outside wondering when my body will let me out of this “break time jail”. Rest is so overrated! haha I can just hear all the people in my life rolling their eyes telling me it will take time. I spent enough time sick… but I do realize it will take time. Fine, at least I am going to enjoy every second of it, even if that means I have to enjoy my “break time jail” my body seems to have imposed on me today.
On a different note, Kelly went to UCSF yesterday to have a CT scan of her kidney. We both have slightly reverted to being a little hunchback at times because our stomach muscles just hurt. She is also having additional pain and her kidneys are being funky. Hopefully we will know the results of the CT scan soon and they will be able to tell her what she can do. I hate, hate, hate seeing her not at 100%. She was supposed to go back to work Nov. 1 but they extended that to Dec. 1.
If anyone has any ideas on boredom busters, I am all ears.
It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver. -Gandhi
Always do what you are afraid to do. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
Thankfulness is the key to happiness.